I get a break tomorrow.
That's where I'm at right now.
I'm not at all pleased with this painting. Although there's someone out there that probably doesn't even know of me that if they stumbled across my work would probably think this is the most inspired I've ever done. Or not. I don't know.
I really don't know much at all.
I suppose that's what the challenge has taught me. Which I already knew -just for the record! I'm a student, learning, exploring...I hope I always will be!
I pushed the envelope on this one. I think I pushed too far. I think it was there (or at least closer) half an hour before I finished and I just spent the last half hour attempting to make the closest thing to an abstract more "identifiable" which I think missed the point. I took a picture during the process then deleted because I knew I couldn't get it back...but I should have posted that one. It was fresher, cleaner, more energetic less over-worked. Will I pursue a more abstract style in the future? I'm not sure. Time will tell. I know I can compare the colours of this one and see similarities to my more representational pieces but I am more pleased with the results of many of the others. I'm curious none-the-less. I cracked open a door I never intended to walk through. What's on the other side is intriguing, interesting, alluring, but is it for me? Time will tell.
For now. I will take a break. Maybe a day, maybe more. I will reflect, regroup, clean up my work area and attack some other aspect of my life with a bit more gusto.
When I return to my easel I will return with a bit more confidence because now I know I don't always have to wait for inspiration to show up, sometimes me showing up first calls inspiration and asks it to put in some time. Sometimes that scenario works too.
I'm happy I participated in the challenge and I will again. This has been an intense month but I believe it was a great learning experience and totally worth the time. Thanks for taking the journey with me!
24 x 12
acrylic on canvas